I realise that in a two dimensional photograph, I usually look a healthy weight. However, it's not possible to see the whole picture from one angle. My height, weight and BMI are in the 'healthy' range, and to any observer I do look to be a reasonable weight. HOWEVER, having spent almost 39 years in this body, I know that I have a very small frame, and that if I hadn't abused my body with junk food, alcohol, drugs, binge cycles, lack of exercise, long periods of anxiety, surgeries, and long term overeating — genetically I'm designed to be long and lean; I have a tiny skeletal frame, average size muscles and more fat that I 'appear' to have. In short, I'm still on the journey to improve my body composition.
I'm using walking as my only consistent form of exercise (for now), mainly because my arthritis and adrenal fatigue limits me in the gym; raised cortisol causes arrhythmia and I also don't recover from muscle soreness the way I used to (I used to weight lift but haven't since October 2016) – walking not only strengthens my bones to prevent osteoporosis, it improves cardiovascular health, regulates appetite, limits muscle catabolism (as I'm in a calorie deficit), it also helps to lubricate and realign my back (I have inflammatory arthritis of the disks, facet joints and hips, with posterior disk bulges impinging both spinal nerves).
I'm sure, to an onlooker it seams crazy to pursue 'weight loss' goals when aesthetically I 'look' healthy. But weight is just one measure on my journey. I have fat to lose; muscle to maintain and most importantly my main goal is to be completely free of the symptoms of inflammatory disease and to feel TRULY ALIVE in my body, I want to feel the freedom I had as a child, the vitality and the trust I had in my body. Hitting a goal weight won't get me there, but it's one way I'm trying to keep myself on the rails.
A lot of toxins and unnatural ingredients are fat soluble and stored inside our fat cells... burning fat, I believe, releases these into our system & can cause some unpleasant feelings. Recently, I've felt lethargic, suffered from headaches, acne, more bloated & hormonal; this journey is cathartic in more ways than one.